Hello readers! (This is for all 3 of you!)
Well as we are winding down 2015, many people – myself included – like to reflect on the happenings of the past 365 days and try to come up with a few lessons learned that we can maybe apply to the next year. As I’m sitting here typing this blog, which I started (sort of as a resolution itself) 364 days ago, I can’t help but realize, I’m not much for the blogging. I really just have a hard time sitting down to write something worthwhile – or that I’ll think anyone else would find worthwhile – regularly. Most of the time, since I write as part of my job, I have a hard time thinking of anything else to say. Plus, I really just don’t enjoy writing in and of itself anyway. It’s just something I do. Thus, I apologize to the one person out there who may have been floundering for the past few months waiting for the latest revelation to be released (ha!) but I doubt I’ll continue doing this very often. Perhaps every once in a while if I want to explore some thoughts and feel the need to share them again you’ll see a new post. Since no one has been asking me when I’ll post I doubt this blog will be missed terribly.
Regardless, I feel the need to finish 2015 with a post since I started the year with one! So here it goes!
Realizations on what makes me happy:
1.) I love to travel! Seeing new places and experiencing new sights, smells and flavors excites me. I have been able to do a lot of that this past year, and I’m grateful. I am equally as excited to announce that my partner, Mike, and I have declared 2016 to be “the year of adventure.” Stay tuned.
2.) I love sleeping in my own bed. As much as I like to go away, I really love being at home. I like my bed, my sheets, my pillow, how dark my bedroom is, how quiet my house is at night, how pleasant the stirring of the fan is overhead, and I love having my partner beside me. Simply serene. Plus, I like tucking my boys (my furrbabies) in at night; they don’t mind either. As much as they’d like to sleep in our bed, too, they also seem to enjoy cuddling up together in their little bed. They are so well-behaved. They are just little treasures. I digress. Anyway, getting ready for bed around our house is a comfy, cozy ritual that I enjoy.
3.) My parents are (still) wonderful. They’ve had a few trials this year but they’ve managed to pull through as they always do admirably. Plus, they’ve never balked at the notion of keeping my dogs when I’ve gone out of town, and they are just so helpful ALL of the time! I’m lucky. I love them. Heck! I love all of my family! #grateful
4.) I’ve also chosen a remarkable partner! I continue to be amazed by his work ethic; he’s a provider and I’m fortunate that he is. We’re going to be fine…no matter what. Plus, he likes my graying hair (Thank goodness!) and it’s adorable to witness his growing adoration of “the boys.” (So cute!) #happy
5.) I need not worry/stress over work-related stuff. It’s all self-induced stress anyway. Now, to be clear, I REALLY LOVE what I do! I guess I’m trying to find the (elusive) balance between caring but not caring too much because I can stress out. Anyway, I know many people struggle with this, and knowing that is somewhat comforting, too. Since 2015 was about exploration for me I have tried a few different approaches to work based on how my colleagues approach their work and I’ve finally come to terms with what works for me, and I am so thankful I’ve found this happy place! I hope I can hang out in this space for while and grow from here.
Anyway, “We all make our own happiness!” ~ my mom
This leads me to…
6.) I’ve got skills! I may forget this sometimes and let myself feel like I’m unworthy of the position I’ve earned so that I can do what I LOVE but I’ve actually got skills and can contribute something worthwhile. (However, while attempting to contribute something, I often need to go back to #5.) I’ll use these skills and do what I love for as long as I can and then if/when this chapter ends, I’ll just do something else! (See #3 and #4…I/we will be fine.)
Do I sound flippant? Privileged? Maybe. I don’t know if I’m flippant but I am trying to give myself a break. (And you should, too!) I already am aware of my privilege but there’s not much I can do about that other then use it to benefit others…and I am…or at least, I try to do that…every day.
Well, I suppose I could keep thinking and writing but I’ll just wrap this up. These are a few of my favorite realizations of the year. I hope you take a minute to be introspective on your year, and I hope that you use that time to your benefit.
May you find what brings you joy and may you be able to grow your own happy! I wish you all the happiness you can handle in 2016!